Just The Way It Is

In all my life, I've known the worst kind of men.

I've known the kind that commit incest
I've known the kind that rapes
I've known the violent ones
I've known the bully
I've known the coward and the shameless
I've known the cheat and the con man

Never have I met any like you.

So forgive me if I seem shock at your differing,
Forgive me if I jump at the slightest touch.
Forgive me if I cower when all you present is a hug.
Forgive me if in spite of your differences,
I fear you could be like those that came before you.

Considerations

I have contemplated closing down this blog. But the main reason I started it in the first place keeps niggling at me. Being a private person, i have found it difficult to share my story. Its not the audience that matters rather the fact that these thoughts needs to come out. Mine is not a new story, most people I'm sure has gone through it same way i did. However we all have different strenghts in dealing with our experiences. If in opening up, i get to help or reach just one person, i shall be glad. So I will be starting over

The Substance of A True Woman

There was a meltdown in the order of things
My life was thrown into disarray
In the hands of a wicked man

So i left my life to go to war
To battle against the odds
Piece by piece, to gather and restore

It is almost two years and i'm barely standing
The damaged done to different areas of my life and existence
seems endless
Barely standing, but at least the wicked man
is no longer in my bed

Slowly i can breathe again
Slowly i take my step
Slowly i regain my strenght
Slowly i recollect who i was before he came to view

Slowly but surely i am standing
With the Almighty God as my strong hold
I am coming up
You are no longer sinking my glory

I no longer hold a grudge
I am no longer bitter but
I'll surely never forget
Watch this space for i am breathing
I am stepping up, regaining strength
To exhibit the substance of a true woman